Mastermindkind

Why should life be arcane to us? Why is it that one should be punished for wrongs one never did? Life for me is unfair and mystical. Like a fairy tale i have to believe that tomorrow holds hope for me. To nature i must obey every laws that hold me to the ground. To all the laws i must submit my desires and whatever my heart yearns for. My lusts and longings are at the mercy of the dark nature of this dark wild world. In my heart i yearn to give out love but my deeds are dark and an abomination. My heart lusts for me to see my family get  together but all i see is division and hatred. My heart longs for a long hug from my fiancée but all i get is fierce looks and hate.                                  My heart hanker to see my friends prosper but all i see in my heart is darkness that can't be explained. Apart from all that still, my heart languish for laughter that can't be explained eit...

I gave you all i thought meant everything to me but you threw it away. I promised to stick by your side for 365 days for eternity but you ran away with my best friend. I trusted you with my heart but you stabbed my back with lies. I gave you my passwords to every accouunts in my heart but you changed them and blocked me out. I worked day and night to build for you a glass house but now you are throwing stones at it. I chose you over my own self but now i am the one paying the price of being betrayed. Why is that i loved you yet you never did love me? Why should our heart fall for those who don't love, care and trust us? Why should we face this pain searching for our soul mates? Why is it that everything be it sweet or bitter should come with a price? Why, why, why should we pay for practically everything? Why??

Is this how it should end? All the good times and the laughter we shared together, is it gonna wither like this? Tell me is this how we were meant to say goodbye? Are you willing to ignore the force haunting my heart just because of you? Is your heart contented with the ruthless decision you are gonna make? Atleast before you go say goodbye in a way my heart will appreciate. Tell me how i will face tomorrow without your charming smile. Come to my face and give me another reason to live and trust in love again. Tell me how to trust and fall in love again without thinking of you. Compel me to forget if you ever existed in my mind. Take away that special piece of my heart so that an empty space will remain. Give me hope that i will find someone like you. As you go know that i loved you dearly and that you will remain in my soul forever. Give me that last kiss as you say goodbye.

Today in wareham i had to wear my armour of untouched vibes, For long my eyes have been searching and struggling but today they saw miss charming, My weary eyes saw the dazzling face in a 3-D phase, Today was my date of luck and i was full of smiles. I saw her approaching and i stood there just staring with my smile, She came smiled at me and passed me What is wrong with me? Why am i smiling back and not talking to my crush? Why is my body becoming weak and yet i am not sick? Miss charming, the love i have for you weakens every part of me when i see your photo and when i see you. My bravery seems to diminish and disappear when i see your cute lips,Tell me the medication of this sickness miss, My dear, why can't you approach me and remove for me the fear that eats me when i try to approach you?   I am to rummel and yet you know that my feelings for you are genuine? My heart is hurting and aching and you are my only medication. The only medicine that can heal me with jus...

I thought having it all is actually the way of life and its nature. But through the rummel and trubel of this life, i have learnt that it is rather better to have it small and laugh it all.       My struggles may seem overwhelming and tiring, My laughter may seem weary and outdated, My vision may be distant away and blur, My thoughts may be unthought of,                              But When my struggles are over, i will laugh out loud. When my laughter is energized and activated, i will laugh it all out. When my visions and dreams are pertinent, i will fissure my ribs with laughter. When my thoughts are contagious and highly motivated, i will let it infect anyone who comes across them.                          Because At the end i will laugh out louder.

I thought i knew who i was till i met a boy in the garbage pit. The scruffy boy scuffled around with litters searching for what seemed to be his only luck to a glorious life. When the boy saw me, he kindly asked me for twenty bob coin for something he could eat.Me on the other hand was broke like a broken record, in my pocket was thirty shillings of which it was my fare back to the house.I told the boy the amout i had and told him it was my bus fare to the house.What he told me made me think twice, the boy told me that he understoods me and that he will get food in the garbage pits. My eyes became wet and my hands reached to the pocket and i gave the boy the only cash i had. I had to walk for seven kilometers with alot of thoughts and questions in my drunk mind. Was i worthy of being on bus seated comfortably while a boy eats from rubbish pits?How would he feel if he offered me something from the rubbish and i refuse saying that is bad to eat from rubbish? Why did he not insist on t...

My friend when you reach to heaven, tell the angels am on my way.             Tell them that am not out of reach but i have to preach. Give them my letter and remind them that i will be there when my time comes. Ask them if they can speed up my passage to heaven.         Tell them i am living in a bliss life knowing you are in enchantment. Tell them i won't delete your chat so that i can cry every day when i read them. Tell them how we fought with my fiancée when she found out that in my gallery all photos were yours and not hers. Tell them am on my way and that they shouldn't be trepidation up there. Tell the angels that i am in Los Angeles taking the flight home. Tell them to write a song for our friendship that they will sing when i arrive. Tell them that i did not say goodbye because we will be together again.

Last night i dreamt a dream screaming and beaming up on my only wealth i had, my gum. Last night in my dream i saw myself in a big glorious mansionette sitting in the balcony watching the falcon rise. Last night in my dream i saw the streets of Nairobi with no street children and beggars, the city was clean and everyone kean on their businesses. Last night in my dream i saw politicians busy doing and keeping their promises without yapping in the streets. Last night in my dream i saw a peaceful kenya, with no corruption, tribalsim and ethnicism. The only values i saw was nationalism, patriotism, idealism and matriotism. Last night in my dream i saw a dream that meant the world to me. Last night in my dream i saw myself waking up with my only wealth, my gum.

Life in the streets is tough, harsh and desperate. It is in the street where i learnt that the society is a man eat man society. The street taught me to be a scavenger, only to fight for my own wellbeing. Being in the streets created ruthless human being in me. The question is what can i do to remove the ruthless part in me? I aint gonna do away with my street life because that is my home. They say east or west home is the best. And i got no chest and balls to remove that from my mind. It is in the streets where i knew to have my weird cool friends be loyal and love them as they were. It is in the streets where all my strength of not giving up was established. It is in the streets where i began to understand that love exists. It is in the where i learnt that angels do move through men. It is in the streets where all made sense to me that we aint gonna be equal here on earth. It is in the streets where i learnt that everyone has their own purposes and destiny can n...